Monday, August 30, 2010

adventure, please??

I'm keen for adventure.
I guess I say it alot... Quite alot...
But its true!
I want to run until I don't know where I am...
Laugh, Dance, Cry
Scream at the top of my lungs.
I want to do exciting things.
Will you do exciting things with me??
Shall we go on an adventure??

Thursday, August 26, 2010

:)

i feel like a loser wearing red lipstick.
oh, life is good :)

Saturday, August 21, 2010

apologies.

its to say sorry, to feel remorse for something i guess... to try and make it up to the person that has been hurt.
so many apologies are just empty words, nothing meant by them, they're just said to get people out of trouble.
i try not to say things unless i mean them.
and then i say stupid things. i'm very good at saying stupid, hurtful things.
in my head they're not meant to be mean, i don't mean to do lots of things.
is it the intention behind something, or the way its recieved that matters most??
is it both??
if you only meant well, and what you said was misinterpreted, does that make you at fault for any hurt caused to the other person??
i guess so... they were my words, right...
could i go as far to say that if you weren't so quick to condemn then maybe you wouldn't get yourself in trouble so much??
i'm sorry for any offence i've caused you. i'm sorry i snapped back, what you said was really upsetting, i was only trying to help, but thats not an excuse... i feel really bad.
this silly little thing shouldn't come between friends...
i'm genuinely, honestly sorry.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

today is a good day :) ♥

bam. today is a good day :)
its cold, its dreary, its winter, i'm in english, i'm bored out of my mind and its only third period.
but its still a good day :)
yeshh indeedy!
because, ya see, life is pretty good :)
despite the winter, and these full on wars going on, school in general, play rehersals! life is good!
i dunno, maybe theres something wrong with my brain, maybe definately, but i don't see the negatives in life, its just not possible. or at least i don't want it to be.
i don't see the point dwelling on things that really don't matter. they kind of suck :)
even if i could be sleeping right now, or trying not to fail, at least i'm happy in not doing anything :)
so there, thats my postive for the day. i'm just happy :)
yay xD

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

don't close your eyes...


Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken
Don’t close your eyes, don’t close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you’ve got now
Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
...
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
...
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
...
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
...
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
...
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be
...
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
...
And you had everything to lose...

Saturday, August 7, 2010

the joy of life

i'm pretty sure, tonight i've found the joys of my life. between photo gazing, and reminiscing, exciting dance sessions, singing loudly and off key, chilling in warm hoodies, late night sugar runs, ghd curls, spending time with amazing people, smiling, giggling uncontrollably, late night secret texts, cuddling in warm doonas, its all sorts of amazing.
i think that life is pretty amazing :)
its funny, through everything thats been going on, which is honestly not all that much, haha, i kinda forget how amazing life really is.
its nice to look at the stars and remind ourselves... :)
theres some pretty amazing people in this world, and they make me happy :)
i kinda really love them, they make my world complete :)

Friday, August 6, 2010

just imagine...

hmm.. english is kind of boring.
there are so many things that i should be doing...
my massive shakespeare assignment, exo day planning, my historical narrative, i wrote a whole 5 words on that, so i'm doing better than i was doing half an hour ago.
i'm pretty good at procrastinating, i reckon its a skill.
i'm also good at thinking about all the things i could be doing instead of being here.
like sitting on some secluded beach in the middle of the tropics sipping drinks with umbrellas in them, chilling in a hammock, watching the sunset.
or by the fire, sipping hot chocolates after spending the day making snowmen.
or lying in the grass with someone special making animals in the clouds.
not in english in sale...
"The social psychology of this century reveals a major lesson: often it is not so much the kind of person a man is as the kind of situation in which he finds himself that determines how he will act." –Stanley Milgram, 1974

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

infp

weeellll.. cos i'm super cool, i took a jung personality test.
sorry meg! haha
this is just how much work i do in english :P
anyways, apparently i'm an infp, or an idealist...??

As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.
INFPs, more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves
INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.
Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFPs are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.
INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, INFPs make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.
INFPs are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened, INFPs can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".
When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, INFPs are typically completely unaware of such things. They might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of their project booklet.
INFPs do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. Their focus on their feelings and the Human Condition makes it difficult for them to deal with impersonal judgment. They don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes them naturally rather ineffective at using it. Most INFPs will avoid impersonal analysis, although some have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical. Under stress, it's not uncommon for INFPs to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.
INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, they may have a "control" problem. The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives.
INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkard and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.
INFPs who function in their well-developed sides can accomplish great and wonderful things, which they will rarely give themselves credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been INFPs.

well.. this was a great use of my class time :D haha

Monday, August 2, 2010

fire!


today my oldest and bestest friend was assaulted by a crazy girl wearing a stupid belt.

it was full of people walking past until the fight broke out, they disappeared, walked the opposite direction.

one guy told my friend to 'walk away', he kept walking.

the girl's friends stood around laughing and we just stood there.

no one did anything.

some other friends were in the shop next door, they could hear the yelling.

they thought it was someone else.

they did nothing.

of all the people in the center, no one did anything.

and i'm not having a go at them, because i just stood there... i didn't do anything.

i just find it interesting.

there was a woman named kitty genovese who was murdered in 1964, she cried out for help in the carpark of her apartment. she screamed and screamed and all her neighbours heard her.

finally one guy told the murderer to leave her alone, after he'd already stabbed her twice in the back.

kitty crawled back to her apartment, where the murderer finished her off ten minutes later.

there were 38 witnesses, none of which called the police or intervened.

this same results came up when an experiment with similar factors was conducted. people just don't want to help.

so next time you're in danger... scream fire...